Today is one of those "Keepin' it real" days for ol' Angie. Today is one of those days where I've cried non-stop since 9:30am this morning. The tears are big and flowing as I type this. Today is one of those days where you get to read about my heart breaking. I'm sad, I'm mad, I'm ticked off, I'm hurt, I'm a mess. Just a mess! In a nutshell, we confirmed this morning via Kenidi's principal that her special needs class will be moved to another school within the district next year. Yes, dejavu' - we've been here before. One year ago actually. A small part of the reason why we moved from Center Grove up to the north side of town was because the CG school system was doing this same thing to her class down there. Most of you remember it well. I'm sure. We fought the district as well as the hard headed superintendent that everyone loathes down there until we couldn't fight it anymore. They wouldn't budge - aside from offering Brennen a spot in the school where Kenidi would be attending. Why would I move him as well when I didn't even want Kenidi moved in the first place? Stupid, stupid, stupid!
Bottom line, their school this year said that they didn't have enough special needs kids enrolled in the area to compensate the need for two life skills classes right now. Therefore, they are downsizing to one class and moving the kids to one school - a different school for Kenidi. I cried on the phone to Kenidi's principal and vice-principal when talking to them. I'm sure they are thoroughly convinced that I'm a nut job now. However, I just couldn't hold back the tears. Brennen will still be at their school but Kenidi won't. Kenidi is the one who has adapted so well there and who has become a different child since being there this year. The teachers, principals, staff, aides, etc. have helped her to make such huge strides and we just crumble at the thought of loosing all them in her life.
Kenidi and her teachers/aides made me this set of recipes and this card for Mother's day this year. I have read it and re-read it today. Tears me up - really does.
I love you as much as the ocean is blue! Wow...guess they know how much I love the ocean, eh? They know a lot about us actually. They are all like family to our family now. The worst part - with the move comes a new teacher for Kenidi next year. Not only will she loose the school but she is loosing Alison too. Alison...I can't even type right now. I'm so sorry. We are going to miss you so very much girl! I'm sure the new teacher will be great too but we are totally devastated that you won't be her teacher next year. I'm just heart sick over the whole ordeal.
In the meantime, I got a strange set of exams back from the chiropractor this morning. I was referred to her by our builders wife for my migraine troubles. They ran an xray on top of the scans they did and I hope to get the results of it after 4pm today. In a nutshell, they found some alarming things near the back of my skull on the scan which showed "severe" concerns (as the doc worded it). Hopefully it is nothing and can be fixed. I also hope it is just chiropractic type stuff which might be the result of my recent headaches. Hoping and praying to get some good answers today. So...as you can see, God is calling for me today and I'm leaning on him for the support to get through. With Kenidi's situation, I'm not near as upset as I was last year when this happened. I was ticked last year. TICKED OFF! This time, I'm just so sad! With Center Grove, she got booted out to make room for the honor kids classes. With the new school, they just don't have enough special needs kids enrolled for next year to reason having 2 different schools host the life skills class. I totally get that. I really do. It just breaks my heart that the special needs kids are always the first and only kiddo's to get uprooted and moved whenever redistricting, growth, etc. happens in schools. It saddens me for them and for their parents. I'm glad Brennen has one more year at their current school before going off to the middle school. Her principal made me promise I'd bring Kenidi back there whenever I was in the building for Brennen's activities and I will. They have treated her so well and been so supportive, caring, and compassionate with her. I am beside myself that she is loosing them. I know I've already said that but it just keeps rolling off my tongue.
With all that said, I'm off to meet a blog reader of mine for lunch. Hope she enjoys my "running mascara" look down my cheeks. I'll tell her I'm just pretending to be in the band KISS for the day or something. Ironically, we are meeting to discuss Kenidi and Brennen's school and experience up here thus far. She has a child in a private school and she was thinking of moving them into the district schools after hearing of the great experience we've had. Little does she know that she is getting ready to eat lunch with a nut job after learning of the news this morning. Ha ha! Hope she has some extra tissues on hand. And on another note, please check back later tonight for a new post here on the blog. It's an important one. One that I'd love for you to read and process. Nothing to do with today's events but yet something I'm excited about and would love to have you guys share with Brent and I. And no...I'm not pregnant. HA! Not even trying yet - just so you know fo' sho'!
okay...i cannot even finish reading this right now as i am now bawling...so i don't know if you mentioned this...but don't they know that special needs children need consistency?!? as all children excel with consistency it is crucial for special needs classes. my mother in law teaches in s.n. classes and once these children know you they depend on you being there ever day in the same room and the same routine. but what more can i say...with all of the teachers in my life and the devastating job loss across the board...school systems just plain suck it this year! ('scuse my language)
Angie, when it rains it pours ... seems that way I guess. I hope things work out for Kenidi & the process of changing schools again. Also, please let us know about your tests. I'm going through issues too, so I know your concern.
Oh Angie, I am so sorry that this is happening again. I will keep you and Kenidi in my prayers. I'll also be praying that you are okay as far as your health is concerned. Have fun meeting with your blogger friend....I'm sure she will love the mascara look! LOL Can't wait to read your post tonight.
Angie!!! I hate this for you guys b/c of the ordeal you all went through last year but I hope and PRAY that this is a positive change. I do agree w/Brooke who commented above about special needs kids needing consistency. Whenever they change facilitators or teachers on my little sister she always goes into "silent" mode where she won't talk or sign for awhile. I don't inderstand why they do this after you have worked so hard to get to where you are with your child. Irritates me to no end!! I will keep you in my prayers and miss Kenidi for thisupcoming school year. And so hope everything is OK with you and it's nothing major. Hopefully you can go back to the chiropractor and they work their magic on you and relieve you of those miagraines. And thanks for supporting me on FB, I'm just keeping it real, HAHA!! I'll be back tonight to see what you have to reveal now that you have me total suspense :) ~Molly P
No matter how steep the mountain - the Lord is going to climb it with you. -- Helen Steiner Rice --
Angie, I sent you a message on facebook, too. There needs to be a movement in Indiana on a state level. (this happened in CA...I think I sent you the article once) about a movement to integrate special needs children into their neighborhood school environments. The money they save on special busing, etc more than makes up for the changes, etc. There is also so much therapist and medical opinions that this is the BEST scenario for the child. (as evidenced in Kenidi's growth this year) I know this is an issue that has parental support, so we have voices that NEED to be HEARD. They have us at an disadvantage so often, we are busy parents....busier than they on a day in and day out basis that we often have to carefully select our battles (doctors/insurance companies/finances/time/emotions).....but I tell you girl, this is starting to really incense me and I think we need to brainstorm on this one. Brendon will be entering kindergarten in 2010/2011 schoolyear and I do NOT want changes annually because they can't seem to get it together for these kiddos. arggh.
What my heart keeps saying about this is probably what you already know...God is Kenidi's Director of Education and he has a plan for her life. The chaos in CG brought you to a wonderful year of learning for Kenidi and we have to hope that this mountain is more of a path to an even BETTER experience next year. God is lovingly, nudging your family in the directions he wishes. I trust that because he says that he is the vine and we are the branches.....if we branches remain in Him---we will flourish. I see firsthand how your family remains in Him, so it's part of His Plan.
What is it that they say? Worry is the illusion of control. We may not know the plan he has for us...
Hey sweetie! :) I just read your blog!!! I am so sorry to hear about the school situation yet AGAIN!!!!!! I hate that for you and her.....I will keep you in my thoughts and hope for the best girl! I can't access my Facebook from my computer right now, just my phone, don't know what's going on with it for sure, that's why I'm emailing! so, keep your chin up honey! I'll say a prayer!!!!!! :) <3<3<3
Well as a mother, there is nothing worse than having your baby girl call you and tell you of some awful deed that someone is doing to them, especially when you can't do much to help in the long run either. I know God will see to it that something good comes from this baby girl, but I also know that's not very consoling right now. I tell you that the people who make these changes with no consideration for these children or their families, will be held accountable for their actions. Also, As far as the other situation with yours and Kenidi's health, I will be praying that these folks know what they are doing and can help. I love you lil darlin and Jesus Loves you, so you just continue to put God in charge of everything(because he is anyway) He wants you to acknowledge that you can trust Him wheather down in the valley or up on the Mountain, hard to do sometimes, but your rewards are their waiting for you when you do. xoxoxo
Wow, Angie..I hate to hear what they're doing. Special needs children need more stability than others. Moving them doesn't provide that.
Also. About your chiropractor appointment: my mom suffers from migraines and your diagnosis sounds similar to hers. I forget the exact name for it, but I'm almost certain it's the same. Ill be praying for you guys for everything. Take care.
I will pray for you girl. I don't understand why bad things sometimes happen to good people. Sometimes it just baffles me when these things happen. All I have as far as advice is, wait it out and see if God doesn't just have a better plan than you do. It's completely possible! Reality sucks, doesn't it??!! God is good. All the time. He doesn't make mistakes. Hard to believe right now, but true. Have a good day. And Kenidi's card is beautiful. Made me cry too.
Angie, I am so sorry that you are having rough times. Please know that I will keep you in my prayers...that everything will turn out just fine with your health and with Kenidi's school. You have every right to be frustrated. Sometimes it seems like no matter how hard we try to make everything go smoothly, it just won't. You are a strong girl, and you will make it through all this. Jill
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okay...i cannot even finish reading this right now as i am now bawling...so i don't know if you mentioned this...but don't they know that special needs children need consistency?!? as all children excel with consistency it is crucial for special needs classes. my mother in law teaches in s.n. classes and once these children know you they depend on you being there ever day in the same room and the same routine. but what more can i say...with all of the teachers in my life and the devastating job loss across the board...school systems just plain suck it this year! ('scuse my language)
Angie, when it rains it pours ... seems that way I guess. I hope things work out for Kenidi & the process of changing schools again. Also, please let us know about your tests. I'm going through issues too, so I know your concern.
Prayers,
deb
Oh Angie, I am so sorry that this is happening again. I will keep you and Kenidi in my prayers. I'll also be praying that you are okay as far as your health is concerned. Have fun meeting with your blogger friend....I'm sure she will love the mascara look! LOL Can't wait to read your post tonight.
Sending a big ol' hug your way,
Kristin
I am so sorry, Angie. I know you are in many people's prayers today--including my own. Hugs, Kate
Hand this over to God completely, He always knows what He is doing, even when we don't understand.
Angie!!! I hate this for you guys b/c of the ordeal you all went through last year but I hope and PRAY that this is a positive change. I do agree w/Brooke who commented above about special needs kids needing consistency. Whenever they change facilitators or teachers on my little sister she always goes into "silent" mode where she won't talk or sign for awhile. I don't inderstand why they do this after you have worked so hard to get to where you are with your child. Irritates me to no end!! I will keep you in my prayers and miss Kenidi for thisupcoming school year. And so hope everything is OK with you and it's nothing major. Hopefully you can go back to the chiropractor and they work their magic on you and relieve you of those miagraines. And thanks for supporting me on FB, I'm just keeping it real, HAHA!! I'll be back tonight to see what you have to reveal now that you have me total suspense :)
~Molly P
No matter how steep the mountain - the Lord is going to climb it with you. -- Helen Steiner Rice --
Angie, I sent you a message on facebook, too. There needs to be a movement in Indiana on a state level. (this happened in CA...I think I sent you the article once) about a movement to integrate special needs children into their neighborhood school environments. The money they save on special busing, etc more than makes up for the changes, etc. There is also so much therapist and medical opinions that this is the BEST scenario for the child. (as evidenced in Kenidi's growth this year)
I know this is an issue that has parental support, so we have voices that NEED to be HEARD.
They have us at an disadvantage so often, we are busy parents....busier than they on a day in and day out basis that we often have to carefully select our battles (doctors/insurance companies/finances/time/emotions).....but I tell you girl, this is starting to really incense me and I think we need to brainstorm on this one. Brendon will be entering kindergarten in 2010/2011 schoolyear and I do NOT want changes annually because they can't seem to get it together for these kiddos. arggh.
What my heart keeps saying about this is probably what you already know...God is Kenidi's Director of Education and he has a plan for her life. The chaos in CG brought you to a wonderful year of learning for Kenidi and we have to hope that this mountain is more of a path to an even BETTER experience next year. God is lovingly, nudging your family in the directions he wishes. I trust that because he says that he is the vine and we are the branches.....if we branches remain in Him---we will flourish. I see firsthand how your family remains in Him, so it's part of His Plan.
What is it that they say? Worry is the illusion of control. We may not know the plan he has for us...
Praying for you guys!
Melissa Roark
Hey sweetie! :) I just read your blog!!! I am so sorry to hear about the school situation yet AGAIN!!!!!! I hate that for you and her.....I will keep you in my thoughts and hope for the best girl! I can't access my Facebook from my computer right now, just my phone, don't know what's going on with it for sure, that's why I'm emailing! so, keep your chin up honey! I'll say a prayer!!!!!! :) <3<3<3
Love and hugs,
Tammy
I am so very sorry about the entire school situation and please know I am praying for restored health for you.
Blessings always,
Kaye
Psalm 46:10
Well as a mother, there is nothing worse than having your baby girl call you and tell you of some awful deed that someone is doing to them, especially when you can't do much to help in the long run either. I know God will see to it that something good comes from this baby girl, but I also know that's not very consoling right now. I tell you that the people who make these changes with no consideration for these children or their families, will be held accountable for their actions. Also, As far as the other situation with yours and Kenidi's health, I will be praying that these folks know what they are doing and can help. I love you lil darlin and Jesus Loves you, so you just continue to put God in charge of everything(because he is anyway) He wants you to acknowledge that you can trust Him wheather down in the valley or up on the Mountain, hard to do sometimes, but your rewards are their waiting for you when you do. xoxoxo
Wow, Angie..I hate to hear what they're doing. Special needs children need more stability than others. Moving them doesn't provide that.
Also. About your chiropractor appointment: my mom suffers from migraines and your diagnosis sounds similar to hers. I forget the exact name for it, but I'm almost certain it's the same. Ill be praying for you guys for everything. Take care.
Praying. Praying.Praying for you Angie.
and there i was crying over such silly things!
i am convinced that crying is something we must do from time to time! and a GOOD cry... letting it OUT!
i am just SO sorry about all you are facing! i WILL pray... as i know many will for you!
please oh please keep us posted!
the Lord DOES work in mighty mysterious ways sometimes!
love you... thinking of you!
i'll peek back later for some good news!
I will pray for you girl. I don't understand why bad things sometimes happen to good people. Sometimes it just baffles me when these things happen. All I have as far as advice is, wait it out and see if God doesn't just have a better plan than you do. It's completely possible! Reality sucks, doesn't it??!! God is good. All the time. He doesn't make mistakes. Hard to believe right now, but true.
Have a good day. And Kenidi's card is beautiful. Made me cry too.
Kris
Angie, I am so sorry that you are having rough times. Please know that I will keep you in my prayers...that everything will turn out just fine with your health and with Kenidi's school. You have every right to be frustrated. Sometimes it seems like no matter how hard we try to make everything go smoothly, it just won't. You are a strong girl, and you will make it through all this. Jill
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